About The Eye of the Crone

The perspective shared here is one that comes from decades of experience, study, and personal unfoldment. It is ultimately the result of an unexpected spiritual awakening that occurred in 1971, by which a foolish young woman touched Wisdom, and became a dedicated student of the Divine Being.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

The Nadir of Light
















As we move toward the depth of winter, the light fades,
Weakens, moves sideways.
Rising late, thin, attenuated like a ghost,
A wraith that moves silently in mists and cloudy twilight,
The light shivers in the clear chill of icicle mornings,
And wraps itself in fleecy pastel afternoons darkening
To evening.
Darkness falls, a black drapery muffling the change of scene,
And light appears again.
Within the wilderness, a fire burns, a meal is prepared.
A window glows golden and welcoming to the traveler in the night.
Above the dark earth, the jewels of the sky gleam as diamond-bright
Sequins cast upon a velvet ground.

Death stops by for chats these days;
A familiar presence come to spend a bit of time with me
While I muse and sip my tea. We are old friends by now.
Death never says much; doesn’t have to --
The wheeze in my chest says it all,
Says I am vulnerable, says I am old,
Says my friend and I are growing closer by the day.
And the days are short, and cold in winter,
And sleep seems sweet and warm, deep, enfolding
Like soft arms, or great, dark wings ….

Death is a flirt, catching my eye suggestively
Only to look away again.
It is a game we play; we both know
Which of us succumbs.
This is an ancient wooing dance we do,
A courtship ritual played out at last
In a life lived long enough to understand the partner
And the steps.

The year glides into its turn. One hemisphere enjoying
Sun and summer warmth, the other bearing a cold face,
In winter‘s grip,
The earth orb pirouettes through space
In company with the corps, the coterie of the nearest star.
And each star in its own great cycle spins,
And moves in its great pilgrimage to ending and beginning
Never-ending. The aeons in a choreography process.
The long nights draw cold, sharp as a knife, across the lives
Of the sacrificed. All that has passed is holy, and all that is to come,
And this moment, most of all;
Now is holy. The turning point
Hidden in the moment - in every moment - the potential
Is here, present, perfect
In process.

The dark stain of blood upon the snow
Marks where a creature passed into the maw of history,
And another found sustenance.
Life feeds upon itself, in constant revolution of
Darkness and light.
The scythe has passed, the husks lie empty on the cold ground;
Freed of the flesh, the warm blood no longer coursing
With the pulsing of the chambered heart,
The essence flees from light to dark;
Womb-dark, earth-dark with the richness of loam
And decay
And there, the germ of life takes fire from heaven
Within; Growth begins.

At the turn of the year, as winter claims the sacrifice
The antipodal summer reaches apex, and the light
Begins its redirection.
The apex of humanity, the conscious eye, surveys itself,
What dies and what remains and grows, and feeds upon
That which has gone before, and changes,
Unfolding possibilities.

Another year, and old bones growing colder,
Brittle, like the dry sticks feeding the fire.
Ah -- grind the cinnamon into the mug, just so --
And breathe the scent of sacrifice;
The tree’s life gives spice to warm the blood.
Soon enough my essence will be freed to dance
In the space between the stars, where neither cold nor heat
Are sensed, and all is the light-filled darkness.
But for this day, in time, as the year moves to its turning,
I hold the warm liquid still in its cup, and inspiration
Brings me content,
Absorbing substance of a subtle sort.
Here, at the portal is a glimpse of immortality:
Life and Death as one moving essentiality, the spirit
Traveling, timeless and eternal, in infinity.


Saturday, April 4, 2009

Easter Morn - A Romance











Art by Herb Leonhard http://www.herbleonhard.com

Darkness fades,
Lightening into morning through all the shades of gray.
And then comes pearly, silvery dawn before the dawn --
Clouds swirling in nacreous patterns,
Almost iridescent with the coming light.
Day break looms, the sky expectant, swells
With tints of mauve and blue and pink and gold,
Oestre breasts then the far horizon, bursts and blooms
With color.

There was little sleep the night before;
There were tears, and a sad shouldering of duty.
Before first light she went to the tomb;
It was empty.

I AM the Light that leaps up with the dawning,
Rising in the sun
Undying.
I Am the Love that holds all possibility within me,
Renewing life, enkindling spirit.

Dark confusion, and fear, and questioning, and mourning
War with hope and trust, and love that is undying.
She seeks, and finds,
And in the dawning witnesses the Living One, arisen,
And knows him not
Until He calls her by Her name.

Lover and Beloved meet on Easter Morn.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Two Meditations on the Adventure of the Unknown















I.

It is the season of leaves falling, and dry husks gathered for the burning,
Used and dead, the life force passed as a torch,
The bearers of the sacred light
Relay the flame and then burn out,
Fulfilled.

It is the time of reckoning, remembering, returning to the earth
And giving thanks for the great bounty that is there,
The living vessels of the spark replenishing themselves
Upon the offerings of the dead.

Feel the moment,
The pulse, the beat ‘twixt Life and Death.
The balance point
Which opens the door between the worlds
Like the piercing of a veil …

What do you fear?
What comes, howling through the nightmares of your earthly concerns,
Scything on every side with impunity and seeming disdain,
Laying low love and hate alike,
Reaping the ripened heads from cherished ideas and dreams
Long held and dear?

And what do you believe?
What can protect and save you from the Harvester of Lives?
What holds you safe, coherent, in the icy blast that blows
Across the Void and chills your living blood?
What Ethic, what Philosophy, what God
Wins your reprieve?

II.

How shall you garb the thought of the Unthinkable?
The choice is yours.
The mortal mind must face the faceless form of the Ineffable,
Masking the invisible with shape and shadow,
Smoke and mirrors giving partial sight
When truth is blinding.

Shall primal fear be felt in all its fury and its pain --
The thrashing demon with the red-rimmed eyes
Slavering as it wraps its talons round its prey,
The dark goddess devouring the living creatures of the clay,
Her wizened priestess feeding the unwary from a poisoned bowl,
And riding the night sky against the moon?
Shall wraiths of regrets and might-have-beens
Bedevil us as stinging hordes of flies, and hold us captive
In a world of matter born but to decay?

Shall terror and a greater truth be kept at bay
With fairy tales, with wings of gossamer, and wands of power,
With beauty taming the rude beast within,
The shining spear piercing the darkness, the sword upraised
In noble art of war?
Shall we with unicorns and dragons play,
Enchanted, and enraptured by the twinkling lights
Of fair Titania’s bower?
Shall romance wrap us in its roseate mists, and with its wings
Enfold us in the dream
And carry us beyond the fearful night to golden dawn?

Shall we trade ghost for Spirit
Invoke Ideals -
and move beyond the merely mortal?

The Harvest of the Soul


Speak thou the Word:
From Centre of thy truest Self
Of All
Be Witness to the Perfect Way.
Speak with the very breath
Of God
And in the speaking
Birth
Creation.

Father Mother
Parenting
Oneself
In myriad manifestation
Emanating from the centre
Of that Perfect Union
The Son
And Daughter
Divine the Will.

Rise to the Will divine
And speak the Word of Being
One
And it is done.

The Harvest of the Soul is gathered home.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

A Recognition of the Astral Being


















Remember,
Draw back into oneself the memories
Of birth among the stars
Of singing in the morning of Creation
And dancing in the patterns of the song.
Remember
The Light that shone
From single source,
The vast vibration of the voice that broke
The dark waters of the womb of nothingness
And sent a great sea streaming forth.
Remember,
We are one
In that beginning,
Streaming outward from the source
In great, majestic swirls and sweeping arms
Of starry light,
Bright clouds of breathing
Glowing in the depths of space
In new dimensions
Opened by the Breath of the Initiator
Speaking the Word.

Remember
The patterns of the dance,
The figures traced upon the planes of being
In their designs of relativity.
Remember
There is meaning in the movements of the stars
As there is meaning in the ebb and flow,
The fury and the fair repose of Nature.
We all must dance, revolving
Or extending,
Drawing in or streaking outward
From a point of poise,
Gathering but to disperse
In kaleidoscopic expression of original synthesis
Of Light and Dark
Wherein is born Creation.

Remember
The Word singing in the morning of the world,
Intoning, tuning, turning One Self into a Multiversity.
A chord is struck within eternity, a harmony
Is heard, echoing from the infinite
Into the realms of time and space.
Remember
The Holy Grail of separate self
Is finding this accord.

Now in this concordance of memory
And waking will
Enter the Temple of the Stars,
And know the astral being of the One
Enfolding all within the space of Time:
A body made of time and space
And matter
Precipitated from the nebulous breath
Of the Beginning
By the Word in mating with the working Will,
A body filled with stars,
With galaxies, with an infinity
Of infinities,
Each universe infinitesimal
Within the body of the whole.

This is the Word
Made manifest in form,
The body temple of the One
In which All is contained.
This is the Being,
That I AM,
That Is,
In every moment, every place
And every possibility.

Concordance













.
The stars and planets move
Like dancers in a pageant they process and then regress
And yet again describe the intricacies of their relativity.
This is the choreography of space and matter
Ordered by the Word
Echoing in finite dimensions. Held in Mind
The Word fills up the cranial cup,
Fills up the soul to bursting forth …
To point of change.
Old patterns passed, and certainty found only
In uncertainty --
The Word speaks new meaning;
In the midst of chaos
Design appears.
The astral artistry spreads end to endless end,
The Great Ouroboros of the Word
In its multidimensional being feeding upon itself
To make the finite infinite.

The stars and planets move
Within the spheres of thought - and in their moving
Weave the figures of the dance
Done in the Great Hall of the Lord of All.
As matter masks the Spirit,
So movement speaks the magic word
Unheard.
See, then, the message of the stars is writ within
The heart of space and time, and at that heart,
Sublime agreement manifests in infinite diversity.
The meaning of the dance is at the heart
Of each soul in its Self discovery.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Path Workings on the Tree of Life

The following poems were written somewhat over a quarter of a century ago. Perhaps I was more agile then, but one is never too old to climb the Tree.
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The Proof of Fire (Gevurah)

Within the Solar Sphere came I to know myself,
And find the Sun within,
Make Holy Union with the One I Am,
And rise above the taint of matter
By the Power of the Light.
Empowered, and more --
Emboldened --
By the priest eternal now enlivened,
Now enlightened,
I have crossed the veil.

Before me are the flames -- before me is the cutting sword,
Before me is the scourge of discipline, and I am bound
To brave the fire, the severing, the searing --
Fire and steel and power arise before me in the spirit eye!

Thus I behold the Sphere of Fear, behold the Martial might,
And know the angel of the powers of Justice and Economy
Turns now to gaze upon me with those eyes of fire and light --
Revealing me -- concealing nothing -- blazing
All-enveloping.
There is no night in which to hide,
No corner where I may abide and hold myself aloof;
I have forsworn all else, and I must follow Truth.

Into the flames I now must go,
And by those flames I will to know myself in purity --
In light alone embodied, and in substance like the fire itself --
A being of the Light beyond the need of fleshly form --
Embodied in eternal mode, beyond the grave, beyond the worm,
Beyond the pain of death.
Enlivened ever by the Holy Breath,
My spirit leaps like tongues of flame that speak in silence
And extol the Holy Name by dancing joy
In action, good right arm in sweeping, scythe-like measures
Dealing death to that which dies
And purifying that which now returns upon the path
Which leads unto the Source.

I do invoke upon me now the Fire!
I shall not tarry nor grow faint. The true desire
Within me flames with strength
To match the burning of the Seraphim.
I will aspire, and win my way, and then
Come humble and with childlike awe
To Mercy and the just reward of Law Fulfilled,
And Fear o’ercome, and balance struck.
I shall have won by dint of battle made within myself,
and with the conquering warrior’s wreath
Salute the laughing Lord, place sword within its sheath
And take the orb and scepter as my own.

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Meditations Upon the
Supernal Triad









BINAH

AMA (The Sterile)
I stand upon a silent shore and see the water, deep and dark,
Extending ever like an endless sea.
And yet, there is no life within, no movement on the sands of time,
No light, no form, and all is held within the ebon robe.
It is the womb of Time, before the Word is spoke.

I have traversed the path, come through the flames and found
Release from pain and trial by mercy
And the Father's rich beneficence.
I have stood upon the chasm's lip, and felt myself borne up
And moved across the dread abyss ... was it for this?
Is this the goal? Is this the end for which I strove?
There is a blackness here which never has known light.
There is sorrow here, a bitterness of deepest night
Untouched, unmoved.
There is death, the tomb of joy and freedom,
And the width of all of space, without the stars, without the bright
And beauteous brilliance I have ever known before me.
Where am I? And have I sacrificed all light and life and joy
For this? For only this?

Into my spirit I must look, with single eye, and find the truth.
I am at home again. I have returned unto the Mother,
And the womb of All That Is
Is there before me as the dark,
Becalmed and motionless Eternal Sea.
This is the goal. This is the aim.
For this I entered, flower-bedecked, into the holy fane and trod
The irridescent path with golden sandals shod, and with my eyes
Forever upward turned unto my God.
For this I left the comforts of the world;
For this I did unfurl my banner of intent, and spent my life
As silver and as gold, paying my price
That I might once again return unto the fold
Whence I had issued at the start, unto the primal source,
Unto the Mother and her throne
Set in the heart of Time and Space. I have returned unto the place
From whence I came. And all is dark, and there is sorrow,
And I have no name, no meaning, and no joy of self.

I am bereft of all I ever was, and am as though I never was,
Becalmed, adrift without direction, still, entombed in night.
I am as ash that falls without the breath of wind,
Without the life of movement and of form,
Into the waters of the endless, silent sea.
The Mother's robe of darkness opens and enfoldeth me.
I am enveloped
In the blackness of Eternity.

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AIMA (The Fecund)
Lo! There is sudden revelation.
In this deep and mournful meditation
On the silent, lifeless sea
There is a light
From No-thing come to be, projected from Eternal Source
With force of divine creativity. The waters move
And there is light, and form, and life is born
Within me, and I am in-formed, reborn anew.

Now from the waters I arise,
And see before me Mara's eyes --
AIMA now
Enfolding me --
And I am leaping life and light and joy;
And as the light in me grows strong, I see Her in Her glory
And upon Her throne. Her chalice is now full; her lamp is lit.
The great paternal force has moved Her and She sits
Upon Her birthing chair, and from Her comes Creation
In its endless, infinite array.

There is light within Her eyes; there is life within her womb;
And darkness is the friend of life.
In darkness is the seed enwrapped
And moist, maternal depths hold futures to unfold
Into the brightness of the vast and glorious space
Where Time exists as movement in Eternity.
The stars are born from darkness into light,
And I am one of them, bright-beaming in the night of Time,
Bringing the Word of potency, of creature, co-creating
With divine Paternal Source, bearing my form
As gift of Source and Force, and as a burden that is only Light,
And hence, no burden, after all.

I have released the whole of me unto the Source,
And found myself returned.
I am a child of all Eternity, of Space and Time,
Of visible integrity, am whole, am one
With that which at the start conceived me.
Yet still, I am myself, with my own being formed within
The Mother's womb as singular, unique reflection
Of the Father's thought, brought forth from Unity
Into the dance of multiplicity that is Creation.

Upon Her throne the Mother sits,
And I before Her see the waters thrill with tides of life,
With infinite life, and I am one with it,
Am all of it, and yet, am no-thing, formed,
Being two, and none.
Father's seed of thought I am;
His power spoke, her waters broken
On the shore of Time in cosmic birth;
I am the two of them, as one come through full cycle
And returned, the child of earth, made and unmade,
And made anew as Universal Being
In the Mother's eyes.

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CHOKMAH

I would at last behold and know the Primal Father whence I came,
I would return to feel Initiating Force again,
And hear the echo of the Name
Still sounding and resounding through Creation,
Holy fane of Deity's desire made manifest
And then fulfilled
By the power of the Word
Upon the sea of space.

I am a speck, a mote, a gleaming spark,
And in the darkness of the womb of space
I am a single star, and I am thus alone,
Held in the compass of Infinity.
Yet is the vision now extended me ....
There is a great and mighty wheel surrounding me,
A wheel of stars, a wheel of light,
The movement of eternity,
Infinity directed and encircling all that is
Within the form of matter made.
The girdle of Creation is about me,
And I read therein the wisdom of the cosmos laid
Like sparkling cyphers 'gainst the darkness
Of the night of space.

The wheel turns, and spinning thus
I see the universal pattern whirling in the cosmic dust,
And forming new worlds by the Mother's receptivity
To Father's force upon Her, and new stars that move
In spiral galaxies, and dance in their first morning,
And reflect the Source anew.
I see the wheels, the grinding wheels that turn
And do impress upon the forms born from the Primal Womb
Expression of the One Eternal Source
By dint of puissant and paternal force.
These wheels do move, and in their strength
Like millstones grind, and all that comes to birth
Is to them subject, and their cycling, circling power of truth
To reassert, resound, and echo
In the spiral dance that is the Name
Spoken and heard, and given shape and form,
And by the Mother's sanctifying grace
Become the Word of Creativity.

In endless procession the circles go round
And in their movement is true wisdom found:
From source to force to form light moves,and thence to matter,
Proves itself in solid state, and then begins
Return.

The serpent's coils turn back upon themselves,
The child of matter yearns at last
To find the starry birthing ground from which he passed
To earthly foster home.

My eyes are filled with starry light;
As writing in the deeps of space I see the Father's Name
And Word and Wisdom spread across the vastness,
Framed in ebon, and my power of sight is daunted and is naught.

Then, when eye has failed, and formless light is all to me,
I hear the voice of God that echoes in Eternity.
The secrets of the Aeons are revealed to me
In one, most perfect utterance.
Divinity doth speak, and laughter rolls
Throughout the universe, and wisdom is revealed
To be the endless round of spirit into light,
And thence to form, and back again
To light and spirit from the slowing of the dance
That is materiality.
There is no knowledge of this possible,
No data to collect, nor scholarship to plumb the depths
Of Divine Wisdom, nor the words to frame it in
Were sage or magus to yet come to know
That which is here.
One cannot know the mode and purpose of Divinity
Save one be one with it;
And then, what can be said?

In silence, then, I rest upon the flower of my true ascent,
And make the ancient symbol of the babe who speaketh not,
Yet hears the echo of the Word which sent him forth
In glistening spume of seminal star-spray,
And in his silence knoweth not,
Yet is the Wisdom of Supernal Parent, being made of this
And ruled by it, and formed through its activity.
I may not know, yet I may simply be
The child of ultimate, Divine Paternity.

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KETHER

AHIH!
MOST HIGH -- I AM
THE HIDDEN INTELLIGENCE OF ALL I AM
PASSIVE
IN BEINGNESS COMPLETE
PRIMAL PRECIPITATION FROM UNMANIFEST
FORMLESS AND WHOLE
NEBULOUS
YET LUMINOUS BEYOND SIGHT
I AM
THE PRIMAL PRINCIPLE OF BEING
AHIH!
I AM THE LIVING LIGHT THAT DWELLS WITHIN THE CLOUD
INTANGIBLE YET MANIFEST.
I AM THE BREATH OF LIFE
THAT GOETH FORTH
BECOMETH WHAT IT WILL
AND THEN RETURNS.
AHIH!
I AM BEFORE TIME
ANCIENT OF ANCIENTS.
THERE --AT THE POINT OF ALL BEGINNING --
HERE I AM
AND I AM YET THE END
THE GOAL
THE GREAT ATTAINMENT GAINED
THE CROWN.
AHIH!
I AM THE ALL-POTENTIAL
NOTHING FOCUSED
AND I AM ALL THINGS TO COME.
I AM THE SOURCE OF ALL
I AM THE ONE
PRIMORDIAL
SPARK OF DIVINE CONSCIOUSNESS
THE POINT OF FIRST CAUSATION
AND OF ULTIMATE RETURN
FIRST AND FINAL UNION
WHOLLY ONE
ALPHA AND OMEGA POINT I AM
WITHIN THE COMPASS OF INFINITY.
AHIH!
I AM
AND NOTHING MATTERS
WHERE I AM AS ONE
ALONE
SAVE THAT THE BREATH GO FORTH AS NAME
CREATING FORM.
I AM THAT PRINCIPLEOF SELF-CREATING DEITY
AND ALL IS BUT REFLECTION
OF THE ONE I AM.
AHIH!